My mother told me yesterday that we have to get this house uncluttered, and ready for selling, and moving. We are moving to Langley most likely, and I have told mom that I do not want to go. She is still insisting that I will like it, and that there is everything in it for everyone, but I don't see anything in it for me. All I see is the fact that I am leaving my friends behind, and that I will be the "new kid" in my grad year. Mom won't listen to me at all in this matter. She just keeps saying it's the best for all of us.

On top of that I told my friends, and the majority of them are trying to make me feel better about it, but doing a very shitty job. Ashley kept talking to me about it last night, but she isn't being like Hope who is trying to force me to feel better about it. Brian seems to understand, and he and Ashley are trying to help me to find a way out of this, or at least something that will make this a bit better.

Unfortunately for me, my sister is all gung-ho about this, and my brother still goes along with everything that mom says, for the most part, unless it's her telling him to do his chores. I really don't want to do this, at all. I mean Brian just moved here, so that he would be closer, and now I'm moving away again. Mom had told us that she wanted stability for us, and this is hardly stability. We've moved so much that it seems to have become a habit forming pattern. Once every 2 years or so, we will move to some other part of BC because mom feels like it, and SAYS it will be better for us. I don't think it is very fair to us, and I don't see why, me being 16, I can't go and live with my best-friend. All I'd have to do is get a job or 2, and then I'm set for money for rent. It's amazing what you can do with what little you have left after doing so for so many years. Plus, that way, I will be able to stay in Abby. Instead of Langley. Alas, it shall not be. My mother has said that I am much to young an individual to be moving in with a room mate. This whole moving thing has me down to the point where I can't even really concentrate in school, as you can see. All I want to do is leave this world for the world of dreams, and continue dreaming like this never happened, and is not happening. However I know it won't work. I can't see any ray of hope to help me get out of this. Even though I want to be able to see one. I want to find a way out of this, but I don't think I will.